tiercelgreen | Bank and Burnout talk (Reply)

I managed to make it to the bank today instead of arriving only to discover that it's closed like it was a few days ago. I understand that it's very nice for the employees that banks have such short actual working hours (so that they don't have to sit there all day) but the immense disappointment I feel upon leaving the house to go to the bank at what I assume would be a reasonable time (1pm) only to discover it's closed is immeasurable. Granted my sleep schedule is NOT helping given I'm immensely nocturnal and only becoming more so as time goes on, but it's still frustrating to wake up and have everything close to closing. I do not want to wake up at 6am to get stuff done and gods help anyone who attempts to get me out of bed at that hour.

On another note, I am making slow but consistent progress on all of my monthly work. That is, patreon artwork and commissions and the sketches I need to upload. I've left myself not much time for personal artwork sadly but I have nothing else to do at the moment which it making the workload much much easier I think. And I'm getting paid which to me is worth it. That and my personal artwork this month is a Big Project and so it's taking up much more time than one would anticipate most personal artworks taking up.

Now I don't necessarily think everyone has to be perfectly productive 100% of the time but it is a little annoying to NOT be productive and NOT work on things. I always feel very gross and icky when I get too burnt to work on things and I feel like I'm scamming people out of their money when I take a little longer than expected. Granted this is never actually the case, I do finish my work and therefore it's fine, but that doesn't stop me from feeling bad anyways.

I feel like I should start having a little backlog of sketches and whatnot that I can go and work on whenever I'm too burnt out to work on anything new or come up with any new ideas. It also definitely helps atm that I mostly just get to engage with my special interests for work. Specbio and Ghost. Fantastic.

So much to do and all the time to do it really. I just need to get started.