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 I'm working on drawing out every single member (all 17) of our system for both our own benefit and because I enjoy having a nice visual reference for people who are maybe curious as to how we all look inside headspace. Is this at all an easy undertaking? Absolutely not. I have only managed to line 6 of us and sketch 3 more for a total of 9. I still must sketch out Vangiw-lawat, Rrkyevekisk, Storm, Xanthe, Astraoimh, Tern, and Teymareth to complete my list.

However I believe it will be worth it ultimately when I am able to whip out my gigantic chart with every single one of us on it when someone asks what's up with us. Also because I enjoy having a height chart and people do not seem willing to believe Azem is the approximate size of a horse.

I will have to take a break soon and return to drawing later because my gods... my brain is mush.

Re: Fusion

May. 30th, 2026 08:29 pm
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We figured out what's happened and who's fused finally which is both a relief and saddening. Of course, fusion is a sign of healing for us. We no longer need so many separate parts with which to handle the world around us. This doesn't stop it from feeling like we've lost people dear to us, though. We know that they're still technically "there" in the sense that fhe new alters ARE the older ones who make them up and nobody's actually gone dormant, but I still feel like I'm mourning a friend even when they're still there. To our newest members, to our fusions, to Astraoimh, Storm, and Teymareth.

I love you. Thank you for keeping us stable. Thank you for keeping us safe.

Owhhhhh

May. 27th, 2026 09:14 am
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Early morning and agh.. my head hurts. We've been undergoing a few fusions within headspace which, while we're generally happy about this given it's a sign we're healing, it's still a difficult process to have to go through especially in the context of doing a lot of other stuff as well. Namely I think a large part of it is just that we had a lot of distinct alters form to handle the same issue or the same batch of issues, and so they've decided to willingly fuse with eachother both to stabilize themselves and because having that memory barrier and personality barrier between them is unnecessary for our system's long-term health and survival.

And while I will miss these individuals dearly, I'm not so upset as I could be knowing that they are still here in their new fused form. If I had to give a comparison, it's like how gems within the show Steven Universe, when they fuse, do maintain the thoughts and feelings and personalities of their original parts but create an entirely new person in the process of doing so. I now have a handful of "garnets" and "sugilites" and "opals" walking around within headspace rather than all singular gems.

I will miss them, but I will not mourn, they are still there.
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 I'd like to state on record that just because someone has a long list of kintypes/hearttypes/paratypes etc. and does not actively talk about some does not mean they are any less important. Nonhumanity is a fairly boring thing sometimes all things considered, and there isn't an awful lot to talk about!

For instance, under the bounds of my pencorpus I hold a nonphysical harpy kintype. Now While I do believe this is partially a result of my physically being a member of Botaurinae (bitterns), It holds its ground as a singular identity as well which bars it from falling under the classification of paratype the way that many other aspects of my pencorpus do. Ie. My mountain coyote paratype that only ever shows up in the context of my dragon kintype, my Salt Marsh Moth paratype that only ever shows up in the context of my 17 Year Cicada hearttype, My unicorn paratype that only ever shows up in the context of my Hiisi and skogsrå kintypes.

The purposes of my categorization [plenanima, pencorpus, intusorbita] is so that I can broadly classify my various alterhuman identities into specific little baskets that allow me to place an equal weight onto every identity within a given category all at the same time. Just because I do not mention something much/ever doesn't mean it isn't still there and doesn't matter deeply to me. There's just an awful lot going on all of the time and I don't always have the time to talk about each piece of my being separately! Especially in tandem with being a system of nearly 20 members! We're a very very complicated guy!

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