Owhhhhh

Early morning and agh.. my head hurts. We've been undergoing a few fusions within headspace which, while we're generally happy about this given it's a sign we're healing, it's still a difficult process to have to go through especially in the context of doing a lot of other stuff as well. Namely I think a large part of it is just that we had a lot of distinct alters form to handle the same issue or the same batch of issues, and so they've decided to willingly fuse with eachother both to stabilize themselves and because having that memory barrier and personality barrier between them is unnecessary for our system's long-term health and survival.

And while I will miss these individuals dearly, I'm not so upset as I could be knowing that they are still here in their new fused form. If I had to give a comparison, it's like how gems within the show Steven Universe, when they fuse, do maintain the thoughts and feelings and personalities of their original parts but create an entirely new person in the process of doing so. I now have a handful of "garnets" and "sugilites" and "opals" walking around within headspace rather than all singular gems.

I will miss them, but I will not mourn, they are still there.